Thursday 01232025. Still Microdosing the Void

The LAST thing I want to do is keep filling my brain with the latest evil deeds in the world, but every time I open a new tab, check my messages, scroll mindlessly, there’s some fresh horror. And it feels important to stay informed. I see how easy it is for people to disengage only to be shocked when something goes REALLY wrong. Sort of like ignoring an email because it doesn’t intrude on your day, and next thing you know you don’t have power because you didn’t see any of the warnings in the messages. I don’t want to let my depression take over again, but I also don’t want to live in a delusional bubble. So I’ve been calling this microdoing the void. Allowing myself breaks to sit and acknowledge how awful this feels, how upset I am, and then let that turn into total cathartic apathy. The void.

But of course even in my little void, I find ways to care and exercise my emotions. I feel really connected to my art at these times, and really thankful for the small joys that I have at my disposal. Comfortable spaces like the one shown above. Soft blankets. Tasty snacks.

It’s always been really important to me to have a space that’s inspiring and cozy. I’ve been making more of an effort to have this over the past few years and I see the impact on my art. I think this is going to be more important than ever over the next few years. Little spaces for peace and creativity. And they’re fun to make. I had a good time putting all this stuff up yesterday. One of them is a collage I made years ago. Crazy how much nicer it looks in a frame.