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I feel like I’m trying to grab a tornado and stuff it in a box. Wrangling cats. Day to day life and errands are already kind of the worst thing in the world because of their monotony and unending nature. There’s always something. And then there’s the constant barrage of information that feels irresponsible to ignore, but draining to take in.

I’ve been making collages again to try to cope with this miserable energy. These are my favorites right now, because I made them in my Art Journaling class. There was so much fun and conversation that went into the making of each of these. I felt such a connection to everyone while we talked about everything from maximalism as an art form to music videos to mental health. There was such a refreshing sense of honesty and openness that always left me feeling refreshed and energized. I’d grown so accustomed to socializing being draining, I can’t believe it took me so long to realize it was just the wrong kind of socializing. That I was engaging in the wrong discussions with the wrong people. I think part of that is because we’re raised to think that if being social is a natural state, and if you’re not enjoying it that’s your problem. As if every conversation is a gift. True, you can learn something from the most unlikely annoying people, but usually the lesson is that those people are not for you.

Anyway, I really like these. I might put them in the show, I don’t know. They’re so different from my portraits, but the contrast could be really interesting. And they were all created with music in mind, except the first one which was pretty much just chaos. And a potato.